The other day I had went over the past few years in my head, throughout middle school I was always the girl with the big heart, believing in fairy tales and a happily ever after. You can say that I am a hopeless romantic and I also always end up becoming friends with those who would always hurt me in the end. I also can say I have been hurt to a major point in my life that I have been broken, clearly I have been trying to fix myself multiple times.
I have always been waiting for a prince, someone to save me but I have read something on the bulletin board in my homeroom “no one can like you, unless you like yourself.” I have had trouble with being who I am for a while as I always dreamt of boys coming to my rescue on a white horse. But that was a fairy tale and this is reality. Being hurt made me realize that my fantasy of being with someone just made me scared and that I need to focus more on becoming comfortable in my skin than being self-conscious with someone.
As people know I look up to Demi Lovato as a role model, she needed a break from everything to feel right once again. I am not saying I have all these guys lined up (as I know I will become a cat lady) and I do have love songs on repeat but life isn’t always about being with a guy, it about finding yourself through the trouble times and heart ache. And that is what I am trying to do.
Besides, I can always pretend I’m dating my favorite Australian band ;).
Sweater: Forever 21