Prom 2016

High school has finally ended for me, so despite my busy schedule I had one last hurrah with my friends at prom. I knew there was a lot of hype around prom but I went in with an open mind and I had one of the best nights.

I had gone with a date, who I had asked, but it is perfectly fine going with just friends and not with a date. The whole date concept is something that is implanted in our heads so I thought it would be better to go with a good friend of mine to have fun one night before I leave for school.

My track teammate mentioned I looked like Angelina Jolie in my dress and I literally died! After a fun night at prom we ended up at a burger joint by my school known as Steak and Shake where we pretended to be rich people who wear such clothing as an everyday thing. Although my feet did hurt, I could not have asked for anything else. I am going to miss everyone next year.

Dress: Camille La Vie | Bangle: Lord & Taylor | Shoes: Lord & Taylor | Earrings: Lord & Taylor | Corsage: Safeway | Date: Heaven

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time | a poem

time is a funny thing, we think we have so much of it but in the end we really don’t. one second there is something there but the next, it is gone. it never stops and just keeps going.

just like the instance that someone was alive and well but time quickly took them away. regret is one of the worst feelings that we could have. it stays there in the back of your mind eating at you and reminding you that there was so much that could have been done.

death have taken too many people each time and time is slowly dying with each click of the clock.

i do not want to end up like Prufrock, have not done so much when he could have. i do not want to be a coward.iI do not want to let those who i care deeply about to forget about me once i disappear from sight.

to remember those bittersweet times but they had gone so soon that those who took part will never know it or me at all. once they have mean so much but disappear like a crashing river.

i was too busy thinking about the future that i didn’t realize how few moments i had for my childhood

as i sit in my room thinking about time, my rabbit clock’s fingers ticking with each movement telling me that time is almost up, that everything is slowly disappearing.

do not end up like Prufrock and do ask the question he did not say, but how, how does one do so if that one person they want does not even think about them, know them or even talk to them.

time is going slowly but quickly as school is ending and once the year is gone, there is no going back. once graduation comes i will never see the important people again.

I was too busy thinking about the future that I didn’t realize how few moments I had for my childhood.

do not feel regret because time is slowly running out. there is not enough time. do what you want before it is too late.

why wait for fate when time is fleeting?

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Hey everyone! Despite it snowing outside right now, I would like to wish you a Happy First Day of Spring!

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Fool’s Gold | OOTD

Today is like my 10th snow day and I have put an outfit together, took okay pictures and filmed a video and it is 11:30 am. This has been the most productive morning for a while and I felt like Christie’s Closet for some weird reason. Maybe because I was playing around with my clothes.

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Top: Brandy Melville | Dress: Forever 21 | Shoes: DSW | Necklace: Urban Outfitters

So how are you spending your snow day?

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How Death Changed Me

In early August, I was coming home from a dance camp with my team when at a rest stop, I had received a text from my best friend from back in Boston. She had informed me that a fellow classmate had died from suicide and that is what made my heart stop. For me, that subject was never something I would think about to happen to someone that I knew.

I did not know him on a personal level but we did have a few conversations and he had been in my middle school. Middle school was a rough time for all of us and that was when I had hit rock bottom and I felt depressed all the time and I would think that something like that would possibly happen but I never let it, but to know someone that I met during that time had gone through the same thing was completely shocking. People tend to cover up their pain rather than having others ask them about it.

I tried to forget what happened as it made me feel guilty feeling so upset because I did not go to school with him for 9 years or I did not know him on a personal level (I did have a tiny crush on him in 8th grade). I knew I should not be crying but that was what I did for the next few days. Then I stopped. Suicide is never funny and I hate when people make jokes about it, you will never understand why until you feel like it is the only choice you have to make.

Earlier that year, I realized that I did not want to be sad anymore but true happiness was my only goal and that is what I achieved. After his death, I realized that you learn from a passing of another and discover yourself doing so. Life is too short to be sad and do what you do not want to do. I feel like that I could have done something to stop it but I really could not as I was never in contact with him after I had moved.

So I tried whatever I can do to help myself and the others around me. Having heard that life is too short to regret but that is what I do, so I decided to change that.

Today would have been his 17th birthday and I am looking at the past year and how it had helped me to live life to the complete fullest I possibly could.

I have ended a few friendships with people who made me feel bad about myself and leading me back into a dark place. I became friends with people who I had the same music taste and learning new things. I became more confident on approaching guys and talking to guys (except for a guy that I really like) and I had a boyfriend. I am not freaking out over a complete fail over a test anymore. I openly told people my story and completely changed as a person by doing so. I am no longer judging people and I used to. I have had so many firsts within the past year and soon will be my first year of being officially happy.

Learn from your sadness and create the happy person that you want to be. It does take a while but never give up.

If you are feeling depressed and feel like there is no hope, I promise to keep pushing it through. I was someone who believed that but took life a chance and experienced the beauty that life has to offer. Yes the darkness does come back after a while but I promise keep pushing through.

Find someone to talk to if you are ever upset. I promise it does get better.

I love you.

How I Show Love

Today is the day where one should show off their love for one another. Seeing couples presenting each other with bears and chocolates seem cute and all, but to those who do not know how to show people that they love them is hard.

As I was at SAT class today, my teacher explained how his wife came from a family who did not celebrate anything and did not want to do anything today. I thought that maybe there is a different way to show her husband that she loves him.

I am not one to show off how much they care about others because if I did, they probably would not care and I will feel rejected. So if those who do not if I care, it is hard for me and here are the small ways I will show I care.

  • I will allow you to take a handful of lifesaver gummies (those are my favorite) when I had other take one and I will give you the last one.
  • I will call you weirdo or loser because somehow I tend to tease those who I care about the most
  • If you are hanging with my friends, I will join.
  • Talking loudly so I can try to get your attention.
  • Sharing my food (or someone else’s food) with you.
  • Just by looking at you in the corner of my eye.

I am not the one to try to tell the guy I like that I have feelings towards him in case that my heart will be broken yet again. But remember, if someone does not show you love it is maybe because it is hard for them to open up. Make sure they feel safe and are emotionally ready. If someone breaks your heart, it is not the end of the world.

Keep loving.

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Single Girls Valentine’s Day Present

As Valentine’s Day is coming closer and every couple has been sucking face, it comes down to those who will sadly not be receiving and chocolate or flowers tomorrow. For those who are not going to receive a treat from anyone, why not have a treat for yourself?

I am a girl who loves Gossip Girl, like most girls. For Christmas, I got a Chuck Bass sweater and for Valentine’s Day, Mr. Ed Westwick himself is releasing a t-shirt with him most famous line.

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I cannot wait to receive this shirt! I love the sweater and I hope you guys will buy this beautiful person as well! Buy this shirt here!

Just because you don’t have a boy to share the love with, loving yourself is way more important. Treat yourself with anything and remember it is just another day.

Disclaimer: This picture is not mine and this is NOT sponsored. 

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