Don’t worry guys, I am still here. And there is something that I have been meaning to talk about and it is about self-esteem. For about 17 years or so of my life, I never felt comfortable about the way I looked, the way I acted or anything about myself. I always cared what people thought about me and that really had hurt me as a person and I have lived in a terrible state because of it.
Within the past year, I learned that people may have opinions, but I learned that it is how I react to them. Because of their opinions, I blamed pretty much horrible thing in my life and theirs on me. But I discovered that was not true.
I was in a relationship in the beginning, which ended not even after 3 weeks, which made me realize that I put myself in that situation because I did not love myself enough. That the only reason I became friends with mean and disloyal people is because I did not like myself at all and that was the reason that it put me in such a terrible state for so long, it is because I thought I deserved it.
I learned that if I want a happy life, that I have to create a positive outlook towards it and not a depressing one I had for so long. There will be days that I will get depressed about myself with my nose being too big and not looking like other girls and looking like a child with my chubby cheeks but I have to remind myself that God created me because I am different and beautiful in my own way. Happiness is about appreciating the things that you cannot change and accepting them. Find the beauty in little things because they are there for a reason.
My depressed state was created by my thoughts and could only be changed by them. Happiness is a weird and scared feeling for me but I will bear with it because it is better than what I had felt.
Let go of that boy who is going to flirt with other girls and let go of those friends who cannot see how amazing you are. Love yourself because you cannot be anyone else.
Sweater: Forever 21
Yesterday, my mom and I went to the mall to go job hunting and I went to Forever 21 and my mom noticed this dress. I fell in love with this blue dress. It is fun and whimsical with the bird pattern. The back is very unique and confusing to put on but I love the breezy feel to it.
As you can see, I cut my hair and I had wanted a change. I am so used to seeing girls with long hair so I decided to go against it. As you can see, my dog is also excited.
PS. my mom took these pictures so I trying to teach her how to.
Dress: Forever 21
Today is like my 10th snow day and I have put an outfit together, took okay pictures and filmed a video and it is 11:30 am. This has been the most productive morning for a while and I felt like Christie’s Closet for some weird reason. Maybe because I was playing around with my clothes.
Top: Brandy Melville | Dress: Forever 21 | Shoes: DSW | Necklace: Urban Outfitters
So how are you spending your snow day?
Hey everyone! How has life been treating you? I recently finished midterms and am so pleased on the grades I got in French and APUSH (it was a 77 but still good enough). I really want to get back into blogposts and keeping up on outfits so here is one from last Christmas.
My family and I went to Downtown Annapolis to see some of the lights they had to offer and why not do it on Christmas when everyone is inside and celebrating? It was cold but it was nice to be able to walk on the streets without cars running us over. I will hopefully include a vlog about my Christmas.
Top: Urban Outfitters | Shorts: Urban Outfitters | Jacket: Forever 21
Happy almost 2015! I recently made a video (which you can find below) with hair, and outfit ideas for New Years Eve. This is my absolute favorite out of the two outfits and I was so pleased with my hair that even while I was filming I was ‘Oh my gosh! I did that!’.
Here comes my awkward faces!
I did not notice that I had the headband like that!
I bought this dress Sophomore year hoping to wearing it to homecoming, but ended up not to. I have had this in my closet for a year and I have been wanting to wear it to. I love how the black dress has a simple flirty skirt and at the top it is sheer with black polka dots giving it a rather feminine and fun touch to the dress. The headband is gold with pearl and it gave the outfit a nice touch of color. I wear black so much that I never add a dash of color. I am also wearing my nude heels so it doesn’t distract so much from the outfit.
Dress: H&M | Headband: Forever 21 | Shoes: Lord & Taylor