Don’t worry guys, I am still here. And there is something that I have been meaning to talk about and it is about self-esteem. For about 17 years or so of my life, I never felt comfortable about the way I looked, the way I acted or anything about myself. I always cared what people thought about me and that really had hurt me as a person and I have lived in a terrible state because of it.
Within the past year, I learned that people may have opinions, but I learned that it is how I react to them. Because of their opinions, I blamed pretty much horrible thing in my life and theirs on me. But I discovered that was not true.
I was in a relationship in the beginning, which ended not even after 3 weeks, which made me realize that I put myself in that situation because I did not love myself enough. That the only reason I became friends with mean and disloyal people is because I did not like myself at all and that was the reason that it put me in such a terrible state for so long, it is because I thought I deserved it.
I learned that if I want a happy life, that I have to create a positive outlook towards it and not a depressing one I had for so long. There will be days that I will get depressed about myself with my nose being too big and not looking like other girls and looking like a child with my chubby cheeks but I have to remind myself that God created me because I am different and beautiful in my own way. Happiness is about appreciating the things that you cannot change and accepting them. Find the beauty in little things because they are there for a reason.
My depressed state was created by my thoughts and could only be changed by them. Happiness is a weird and scared feeling for me but I will bear with it because it is better than what I had felt.
Let go of that boy who is going to flirt with other girls and let go of those friends who cannot see how amazing you are. Love yourself because you cannot be anyone else.
Sweater: Forever 21