Senior year has been so crazy and I cannot believe it is half way over! There will be time when I want to get out but at the same time I want to stay because I am going to miss everything. But the most noticeable thing about Senior year is applying to colleges!
This past year I have been taking the SAT twice, ACT twice and finding out they lost my second time, projects, research papers, college applications, work and lots of homework. I believe I am a really good student, top 33% of my class with a 3.84 GPA but with terrible test scores.
I do protest the SATs and the ACTs because they make an impossible test for no reason, and make people nervous. I believe they do not show the potential of a student because numbers do not define what they can do especially when they are horrible at testing, like me. And yes, I did get a tutor during the summer as well.
When you are applying to schools, I suggest starting the application in the summer and during your free time working on their tiring essays. I could go on about those as well.
The schools I have/are going to apply to are: University of South Carolina, College of Charleston, The University of Alabama (yes, THE), Texas Christian University, Fashion Institute of Technology, James Madison University, Towson University, Kent State and Elon University.
SO far I have been accepted in Kent State and Alabama (ROLL TIDE) and have been denied by Elon. Elon and Alabama were my top choices.
I knew Elon was a long shot due to my terrible scores, praying that they would look past that. I have learned not to get my hopes up because I would most likely get left down, it is the usual for me, but i was still upset when I read it at 6:00 in the morning on a Friday.
Just because I did not get into one of my top college does not mean I am not a failure, it just proves to me that they are either not ready for my awesomeness or God/fate is telling that it is not the right place for me to go to school (even if they had an amazing communications program).
If you are having trouble applying to schools or any questions about anything about colleges, just let me know!
Don’t worry guys, I am still here. And there is something that I have been meaning to talk about and it is about self-esteem. For about 17 years or so of my life, I never felt comfortable about the way I looked, the way I acted or anything about myself. I always cared what people thought about me and that really had hurt me as a person and I have lived in a terrible state because of it.
Within the past year, I learned that people may have opinions, but I learned that it is how I react to them. Because of their opinions, I blamed pretty much horrible thing in my life and theirs on me. But I discovered that was not true.
I was in a relationship in the beginning, which ended not even after 3 weeks, which made me realize that I put myself in that situation because I did not love myself enough. That the only reason I became friends with mean and disloyal people is because I did not like myself at all and that was the reason that it put me in such a terrible state for so long, it is because I thought I deserved it.
I learned that if I want a happy life, that I have to create a positive outlook towards it and not a depressing one I had for so long. There will be days that I will get depressed about myself with my nose being too big and not looking like other girls and looking like a child with my chubby cheeks but I have to remind myself that God created me because I am different and beautiful in my own way. Happiness is about appreciating the things that you cannot change and accepting them. Find the beauty in little things because they are there for a reason.
My depressed state was created by my thoughts and could only be changed by them. Happiness is a weird and scared feeling for me but I will bear with it because it is better than what I had felt.
Let go of that boy who is going to flirt with other girls and let go of those friends who cannot see how amazing you are. Love yourself because you cannot be anyone else.
Sweater: Forever 21